Not that anybody checks this but I feel responsible to me to update this on what happened with "the project" mentioned in my previous post.

Well, NOTHING happened! Happy now? Cause I am not. And not because it was not a great idea, so great that I still hope to achieve it one day.. No! Because my dreams crashed into each other with mighty force, almost penetrating the core of my selfishness. (oh, God, I am so enjoying talking bout myself, I should start a blog or something!) I had to choose between staying with my friends, at the safe grove where I could achieve all I wanted, or throw everything away and blindly dive head-first into the social madness called Japan.

And I chose the unknown. For the sole reason that one should not fear it but embrace it.

It's not that I am unhappy here, it is just the final realization that man can't have everything, no matter how much he strives for it. The only thing left for me to do is try and have something. But I am still bad at that. Worse than expected, even. I still want to carry the world on my shoulders and all I manage to do is spill away the little left, letting it pour down inbetween my fingers.

Yes, and I should stop smoking. Liek, for real.